Wednesday, January 25, 2012

It's second year everyone!


One day, on the mall, i saw couple of groups of senior high students and junior high students
All of a sudden, i miss my old uniform, i miss those moment when me and my friend complain about have to go to the mall with our uniform
I smiled to myself with that memory
All of a sudden, everything seems flowing out so fast, i didn't think i'm in a college for 2 year already!
all of a sudden, i found myself help my lil sis to register a college
yeah, it feels like it's all of a sudden
1 year passed just like that
creepy?
yes.
scared?
a bit.
challenged?
of course.
but then,
i'm grateful that i can through all those years
remembered those junior high craziness
doubtful senior high years
freshmen years on college
all those memories become so fun
but the past is still the past
now i must walk the future
:)

Boys...

Really, talks about boys, it's never end
I have a lot of "experience" bad and nice about them
Yeah i know, people sure have problems when it get to their relationships, boys or girls
Books like "Man from Mars, Woman from Venus" makes me wonder, how could it be so complicated?

But i don't know how could it be like that until i was in senior high school
let's say i have a best friend, a really close one since the first year, we have a lot time together, and have such a common, we pass the first year together nicely, the next year, we separated only by one class, she's (my friend) in the next door class, she suddenly attract to boy in my class. The next thing i know is i helped them and happy for them. But, as we all know, relationships sometimes doesn't end well, so my best friend with my classmates didn't end well, the drama begin. It's really a traumatic experience, i'm scared by them, and i don't really like to trapped in those condition again. Condition where i'm the one who has the fault to the end of their relation, who should be blamed to their fight, and many more, the condition when i'm the "evil" to them, much worst the person i like, trust the story. I remembered precisely how i felt that moment. For the further worst, my best friends now grow further apart, not like then, i lost my best friend for merely a relationship with boys

is it worth it?because until now, i'm still missing my best friend, waiting and wondering if we ever be the same as we used to be, 2-3 years ago.

Now, i'm in 2nd year in college, people ask why i'm still single and so on, and so on
They think i'm not into it yet, they never know, because i'm keeping the story myself
I'm just a normal girl, who has crushes, and experience many heartbroken
Regret? a lot, why? because i never had a chance to show it to someone i like

But, it's not always about boys life is, so i want to live it slowly, and i hope finally there's someone, maybe, to accompany the rest of my life

20, the new page of life

Yeah, hi all
After find myself wandering, surfing through the internet, i finally found my old blog, yeah it's awful, and i'm not posting it since...2 years
I'm laughing myself of what i'm reading, i can't believe my eyes that i was the one who wrote that
I'm realized how stupid and naive i was, i don't know if i'm still like that now
Anyway, i realized how much i grew since and now
My language and perspective are changed
But i think is okay
Maybe i will find myself 10 years ahead, reading through this blog again and realize, that i'm still changing
Maybe i will find myself still the same as now
lately, i watch many entertainment show that many of the guest give themselves a letter, 
i found it really interesting
so i'm gonna do the same now
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Dear Regina,


      I know how it's getting tough and tougher everyday, but i think we'll be just fine, just like the past 20 years that we've been through.
Now you're facing new challenge, that might have to change the way you think, react, and act, but i know that we can adapt ourself to the challenge
This year, we're gonna turn to 20's, people say, life just begin
So let's live our life better this year
I know how hard life can be, we past awkward teenager phase, and we know how to survive the adult world
     Now since our way of perspectives is changing, i think we should respect ourself more, not like the past decades.I know you're confused with the path you choose for the future,I know you sometimes look back and wondered if you ever makes mistakes.
Learn that people makes mistakes, but hey, life still go on.People have choices, so do we. Choose wisely from now on.
See you in next 5-10 years now


From the person you know the most.


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